i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)
I had to attend the funeral of a dear friend’s mother today, one of the hardest things I’ve had to do. I know that may sound selfish, I mean how hard could it have been for me? It wasn’t my mom, or even a relative…I think the hardest part was seeing the pain in my friends eyes, hearing the sadness in her voice, knowing the emptiness she must feel, and knowing that there wasn’t anything I could do to make it all better. It was as if I shared her heartache.
I wanted so badly to wrap her up in my arms and take away the hurt, to make things the way they once were, I thought about all the lives affected by the loss of this remarkable, brave, gracious woman. A fighter until the very end, an example of a true lady, she is loved by so many and surely will be missed.
The somber mood brought to mind a poem I like by EE Cummings. To me this poem is about always carrying love with you, keeping it close, and always cherishing how beautiful, everlasting, and transcendent it is.
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
not fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart
I can’t take the hurt away, I can’t make things all better BUT I can be a friend, I can be a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen, arms to embrace, and love to give.
*In Loving Memory: D. Boardman*
May your light continue to shine upon us as a star in the skies above, may your presence fill our hearts and your memory live on forever ♥.